Purging my old photos on Facebook this week, I found some shots of my first bike races, and put them side-by-side with more recent ones. I started to remember and feel again, how I felt in the days, hours, and minutes leading up to that first starting horn. The adrenaline. The anxious moods. The fear. Yep, fear. Man, before that first race, I was a wreck. I was about to ride in my first race at 43 years old. Hell yes, I was anxious and afraid! Afraid of getting hurt. Afraid of looking like a fool. And, yes, afraid of failing.
Three years and three race seasons later, I wonder how different things would be if I had let fear hold me back. I don’t want to go back. I’m loving what I’m doing. I’m still anxious in the starting gate. I’m no longer afraid of failing. I’m afraid of not trying.
We all have dreams and aspirations of doing more, doing something different. If you don’t, then congratulations on your already very fulfilling life! I crave adventure, and I know others do too. Wasting my life, with my fat ass on the couch, wasn’t going to be any kind of adventure. Biking is my adventure. My family is my adventure. To a certain extent, so is my writing (if you can call this blog writing).
Where’s your adventure? What’s keeping you from chasing your dream? What’s holding you back from your aspirations? Fear? Waiting for the “right time”? I can tell you, without hesitation, if you’re waiting for the “right time” to get started on whatever it is that you want to do, you will probably never start. I know I’m not the first person to say this. I’ve heard it hundreds of times. It’s true. I have several friends who quit their jobs in very trying financial times to start their own businesses. A few were living paycheck-to-paycheck, scrambling to make ends meet, but they had dreams and a bigger vision of what they wanted their lives to look like. I think if you ask them, they’d tell you that there was no “right time” to give up a steady paying job and take a risk on a dream. But they did it, and never, for a second, regretted it. And, you can too!
“I’m no longer afraid of failing. I’m afraid of not trying.”
So, what is it that you really want to do? Why not start? Now! Take steps to make your dreams happen. To make your life the way you want it. What does that look like to YOU? It may be writing, learning a new language, starting a business, or scaling Mt. Everest (maybe not). If you want something enough, you will find a way to make it a reality. You’ll endure the frustration, the mud, the pain, the anxiety, and the fear to get to the happiness, the satisfaction, the joy and the fulfillment that will be YOUR dreams and goals realized.
Thank you so much for reading and putting up with my scattered thought processes! I’ll be switching to self-hosting in the very near future, and I will most like be adding podcasting, with a TON of help from my wife. I appreciate any and all feedback. Please have a very Merry Christmas, and a blessed New Year! I will see you in 2015!